The Resurrection of a Fickle Scribbler

This is definitely an "Out with the Old, In with the New" kind of deal. Formerly known as "Read, Play, Love", this blog has returned from its extended hiatus. Along with a new look, the content will be taking on a new direction. To all my new readers, this is simply an opportunity for you to get an idea of my writing style, where I come from, and who I am. For my old readers, this is an attempt to update you on where I've been, and to allow you to make the judgement call for yourself as to whether or not this blog is still something you would be interested in being a subscriber of.

When this blog was born in June of 2010, I was all into trying to Carrie Bradshaw my way through life by writing my stories of self discovery and drunk recoveries for the world to read. What can I say? I was twenty-one years old and trying to find myself after getting lost in a year of wasted time and energy on pointless relationships. I was newly single and inexplicably trying to force myself back into a dating scene that I wasn't ready for, only to be left feeling awkward and uncomfortable for the most part. I thought it was cool to go to bars to be smothered by sleazy men who kept shoving drinks in my face. To me, a drunk friend throwing up in the parking lot and crying about how pathetic she was seemed hilarious at the time. My life definitely was not glamorous, but I sure tried to make it seem that way.

Then Fall came, and so began the series of events that both tested my strength and dragged me through the gutter only to bring me to this point in my life where I could not be happier. If any of you can remember (if you can't I don't blame you), I was a rather avid blogger. I was excited to write about my transition from Orange County to San Diego being that I was planning to transfer to the University of San Diego in the Spring. All of that was put to the side when a series of family and financial issues (all of which are too intense and too personal to write about here) put my life on hold. This is where I send out my sincerest apologies to my readers, for simply dropping out of the blogosphere so suddenly.

In the beginning, I felt consumed by an overpowering quarterlife crisis. I was afraid of losing those I loved most; I was afraid I would never be able to achieve my dreams; and worst of all, I was afraid I didn't even know what my dreams were anymore. Yet, after some time and a lot of patience, I was able to pull through the adversities and continue toward my goal of creating a good life for myself. In only nine days, I will be moving three thousand miles away from everything I have always been familiar with to start a new life in Honolulu, Hawaii where I will be student at UH. When this blog was born, I was a single girl trying to find myself before finding the right guy. Now, at twenty-two, I can proudly say that I am very secure with myself, my dreams, and my relationship.

Yes, I did end up allowing myself to have a boyfriend, and there really isn't a single day that I don't feel extremely blessed to have found such an amazing man. Every day, I feel lucky to be his girlfriend, and every time I think about him, I seriously get giddy....even after dating him for almost a year (he's just that handsome I guess). We're definitely a team, and I could talk to him, listen to him, cuddle with him, and stare at him all day every day and not get tired of being around him.....Excuse me...I think I just barfed.

Sorry, did I get all mushy, gushy, squishy, and blushy? GROSS!

ENOUGH! Bottom line is: I'm happy. With myself, my friends and family, my boyfriend, and especially my life. I'm terrified of moving, but I'm excited to be completely on my own.

...Well not entirely.

I almost forgot to mention that my boyfriend and I will be going to the same school, and after much deliberation about finances and transitions, we have decided to move in together at least for the first year we are out there. I'll be living with him and his brother whom I find to be totally fun and adorable. I can't wait for my new life to begin! So, gone are the old posts of my childish reflections, and so awaits a new story about a drastic change and my attempt to transition into a world that is entirely unfamiliar to me. I'm scared, but I think that's normal... I can do this. :)

10 comments:

  1. Moving gives us so much to blog about. I started my blog in May when I moved from Florida to New York City. So much change is scary, but you are going to do great :) and who doesn't want to live in Hawaii?

    Good Luck!

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  2. Your story sounds extremely fascinating, and I think you summarized everything very well.

    It's official: I'm a new follower :D

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  3. Aww thanks guys for your support! I'm excited to read both your blogs. :)

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  4. It's great that you want to go into education too. I love it - even when I'm being frustrated. Also, kudos to you for stepping out of your comfort zone and moving so far away. That takes courage, and I'm sure you'll be amply repaid.

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  5. Reading this, I am so excited for this chapter in your life! It really seems that you are coming into your own person and ready to embark on the biggest adventure.

    And to add, I have something really funny! Hawaii is ANOTHER one of my possibilities to move to! That would be the riskiest of the four, considering it would be in part because of a relationship (AHHH!)

    But I am glad to hear you're happy and cannot wait to read all about your adventures! You've made me a follower as well!

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  6. Thanks for the comment. Your writing is beautiful and I look forward to reading more of your stories. Moving is always stressful. I can relate to the rummaging through your suitcase finding things to wear! Good luck in your move and your new adventures. Hawaii sounds wonderful!

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  7. Fresh starts are great every once in a while! I hope the new blog and the new things going on in your life continue to go well! And I love the name you choose for your blog - too fun!

    I'm looking forward to seeing what adventures are ahead for you! :)

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  8. I don't know how to reply on my site and you be able to know about it lol but ltd is...well complicated lol. We met right before he was stationed across the country, so we are kind-of together but not anything official just because the relationship was so new and long distance takes alot. He will get stationed out in Honolulu eventually, and I might join him! OR move to California, because its WAY closer then maryland lol. Ahh but I have a while to decide before anything happens I still have a year left of school

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  9. You guys are so awesome. Thanks for all the support! :)

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  10. I guess i've found this blog just in time, i dont have any pre-judgments from your old posts but i can start following your 'journey' from now on & i'm looking forward to it.

    Thanks for dropping by my blog, i'm not sure why you cant follow it? I'd like it if you gave it another go though, if you still have problems then let me know?

    Also GOOD LUCK with the move & the moving in together, i'm sure it's all going to be very very exciting for you!!

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